January 2010
Naked, but that belt I wear so well...
I can’t wait to get that in the mail.
It’s so genius to make a belt with the lyrics to Belt on it.
Even if it’s a 42” waist and I’m 25”… I don’t care. It’s amazing.
I love Say Anything.
“So can I lie in your grave at the edge of the end of the world, where I will sit...”
We give up. We give up on you.
So it didn’t work out with Michael. But eh.
My computer’s virus wants to be a bitch and start the repeating “iii” thing again so I don’t have the patience to explain it.
Whatever. I was like hysterical last night, but then again, I was overtired and having a lot of anxiety so I dunno. I’m not really phased now so it’s all good.
I flipped out on...
Why is everyone sleeping? It's not even late.
Well it’s Thursday, so I guess people want to be “awake” for school.
Be like me, coffee and energy drinks, haha.
I don’t even have school tomorrow. Midterm week is great. T’was a breeze. ‘Cept for math. ANXIETY ATTACK.
“I’m going to Ohio to get high, yo”
All you are to me is dead skin, flaking off my...
Or at least you will be if I find out that you pulled this shit again.
Do not tell me you’d actually do this to me again.
I would hate you. After all this and the fact that you said “I regret letting you go for someone else” and that I was supposedly the best thing that happened to you, so I’ve heard… you’d dare to do it again?
This shit’s getting...
“You aren’t new enough. I give up on you.”
“Can’t stop, won’t stop. I must be dreaming.”
Oops.
So I didn’t tell my psychologist about my addiction.
I figure I can sort it out myself without having to involve her, just incase she needed to tell my mother. But whatever. I’m stopping. I’m freaking out, but I’m stopping.
It’s too unreal when you’re high like that.
It’s real, but when you wake up the next morning, it felt like a dream, or as if it...
“I miss you, miss you.”
“But maybe, I can show you, baby, maybe, I can relax for good. Whoa baby, I can...”
Atavan.
I’ve been high for three straight days.
4 on Sunday. 6 Monday. and 6 Tuesday.
I really have an addiction problem. And I honestly want to stop. I’ll be sober today. But I’ve taken the midterms under the influence of 3 pills and I went through them as easy as possible and with no worries. Today I have off and by tomorrow morning I’ll have 3 last pills to take the last...
Tonight, I guess, I'm human... so thank you... for...
I feel amazing. But let me rule out I am still a virgin. I just had such an awesome time tonight, like no other. Haven’t had one like this since God knows when. I haven’t gone home with this kind of feeling for the longest time. It could partially be because I have about 6 pills in my system but no. It’s not that kind of high. I’m getting a different high. I felt sober...
t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-trippin! :D ahah
“I get angry when you’re around, when you’re around. I get nasty when...”
“I want my baby back. I want my baby back. I miss your kiss, I miss you.”
69!
omg I looked to the right and it says I have 69 posts :)
EPIC WIN.
But this will be 70… boo, you whore!
I'm So Hard
I love how Rihanna sings about being “so hard.”
Shoulda been Ciara. But she got rid of her goodies :)
He's Got A Bong!
I love that they put Michael Phelps back on the Subway commercials.
They took him off when the whole bong situation got out. And everyone dropped him. But now he’s back! And it’s awesome :) I love Subway.
& Michael Phelps isn’t that bad either.
Oh EFF MY LIFE. Maybe not but still. This kinda sucks =/ even though it could never happen. Still disappointing.
facebook chat pwns
A: fuck you
K: no thanks
A: maybe later?
K: we'll see
A: only on Tuesdays
K: I'll meet you after midterms
A: schweet
“Don’t you come near me. Don’t you come close to me. Why don’t...”
You Bathe In Blood Like Mr. Crowley
Mom’s making me watch the Hannah Montana movie with her.
I’m hungry. & I’m apparently sick. I have a sore throat and smoking ciggs is actually making it feel better. It’s crazy. And my zippo’s broken. The fucking wheel won’t turn to light it.
Whatever. I’m bored.
I’m going to see The Ready Set at the Crazy Donkey with Lauren tomorrow....
Less Cute
I don’t know why, but there’s just something about this kid that I really like. Totally out of nowhere, we met and I just really have an interest in this boy. He’s cute, but not my usual type. But he has a good taste in music that I could’ve never expected. He’s got ways to go with it but he’s getting there. Like I told him, he has really good potential to be...
You Can Do Better
So I haven’t written anything in a long time.
A really long time, actually… and that’s unlike me because I always have a lot to say.
Since it’s all been bottled up, this will take longer than one entry.
But lately…
My New Obsessions =
-Max Bemis
-benzodiazepines
-bad influences
-lost causes
-lying
-etc…
Like I mentioned, benzodiazepines, they...